2011 MY year. Some changes.
January 30, 2011
Im 22 years old, Im already sick of this elitistic consumer filled world that we are living in. Some people know, some dont. Money does not make me happy, people tell me Im one of a kind, Im sure Im not. Maybe Im an oddball, most people stare at me in disbelieve, eyes wide open, when I tell them money doesnt make me happy, buying things doesnt make me happy, status doesnt make me happy, education aka. univeristy isnt something I strive for. What I strive for is having my OWN house, my OWN farm and my OWN time. I dont want a 9-5 job, and I dont wanna make more money than I do now, I dont wanna buy more clothes, electronic gadgets or make up. I dont wanna go out and party, I dont wanna hook up with random people at random places. I just want my own freedom, my own time, where I do the things I like, and stay true to myself, my believes and my hobbies. I dont wanna have to depend on this elitistic, corrupted, money loving, money grabbing, status loving, materialistic society. I wanna live of the land. Tomorrow I will go to the bank and get a so called “”borrow promise”, which basically is the amount of money the bank is willing to lend me, so I can buy a house. I have no clue what they will say, Im pretty sure it wont be that positive, but Ima try and see. I have two small houses in mind, one is not for sale, the other is. They are both perfect, far away from towns, from disgusting people and its calm out there. My plan for the future is to buy a house, move in there, make it my own paradise on earth, and have chickens (for their eggs), horses and plenty of land to grow things on. I wanna go back to basics, I wanna live of the land. Why is it so hard for people to get their head around that idea??!! Everyone is so negative, lazy and only see the down side of me owning my own house. They tell me its expensive (my rent is more expensive, and I dont even own this dump!), it will be cold and I will have to chop wood all day. I DONT mind! Ive been there, done that. We moved to a house when I was a kid, it didnt have any radiators, running water or toilet. NOT a fucking problem! You chop wood, you make a fire in the stove, problem solved, you fetch water from your well, when you need the toilet you go to the outhouse, you work as a team and its all wonderful! Its not a problem for me, but maybe thats just me? I dont need the comfortable way of life, Im happy anyway. I guess you can call my way of living and thinking simple living, frugality, voluntary poverty, what ever!
What makes me truely happy.
Reading books, novels, biographys, facts, spiritual.
Writing novels, diary, poems.
Nature, watching leaves, sunsets, sunrises, shooting stars, clear night skies, snowstorms and thunder.
Activites, walking, chopping woods, shoveling snow, rake leaves, horse back riding, picking fruit.
Food, cooking, baking, picking fruit, berries, veggies for use later on in the season.
Music, making music, listening to music, concerts.
Friends and family, hanging out, talking, going for walks, laughing.
Animals, dogs, cats, rabbits, cows, chicken, horses, etc.etc.
That is what truely makes me happy, and most of its FREE! So why should I work more than I need, necessary evil!? Why not spend time doing things I love and live happily? Maybe I wont eat luxuary food, wine and dine, shower every day, shop til I drop, I will be freezing and exhausted, BUT in a good way, I will be HAPPY. I dont wanna work my ass of, getting loads of money, not use them, stress and drive around and then die of a heartattack miserable, with no joy in life. I enjoy the simple things in life, Ive always done that, since I was a kid, when other kids wanted stuff, gadgets and money, I sat there, not understanding why, I thought I already had everything I need. I enjoy making meals for friends, helping others, travel and meeting new people, I like making my own stuff, decorate and make second hand thrifts nice again, I like making jam and my own bread, I like fishing, spend a whole day out on the lake, with company orjust with myself and my thoughts, I like doing things myself, as much as possible, so I dont need society, I dont wanna be apart of it, I dont wanna slave under this fucked up system, I wanna be my own boss, my own landlord, my own grocerystore and write books all day. Tomorrow I will sell more of me than I need, I will give up 6 hours of my free time, to work. UGH. Necessary evil, til I get my house, cos I want it. NOW, that might be concidered materialistic, but I need my own place, my own land, my own farm, away from people. I enjoy alone time very much, but also company from friends and family, I do want a man and children, soon, Ill just have to find someone who is like me, I want someone with the same believes, so we can be a team, and great minds think alike. I guess Ill see how it all turns out, hopefully good, even tho I think it will be hard for me to find a 20 something guy, who dont mind living simple, anti consumeristic, frugality, and like animals and music and quiet time in the forrest. Hmm… Oh well Im gonna go read now before bed, and listen to music, and stare at my cat whos is asleep, that makes me happy.
PS. This might seem blurry, messed up and just doesnt make sense. I just wrote it and didnt make it look pretty, but some might get the messege, oh and pls leave a cmnt about your thoughts.